I admit I began this month feeling very much like Scrooge. After three long days at school I stood out in the cold with Franz and Eloise to watch MaCall escort Mrs. Bass's young violin students in the Blue Jay Christmas parade. It was cute, but cold! Then Eloise was acting as Mary in the church nativity. I had to go to that. I walked into the cultural hall, was hit in the face with all of the decorations and lost it. I was overwhelmed with the need to cry and run away. NO! I thought, I CAN'T DO THIS! I AM NOT READY! I tried to escape to the bathroom but was confronted by Mrs. Santa putting on her makeup - forced to smile and make small talk. I thought I would die. I managed to sit at the table, make nice, and push back tears, staring at my empty plate as there was not one thing there I could eat- not even a celery stick. Franz sent me to bed for several day and since then things have slowly improved. The ice is cracking and I am starting to feel a little more cheerful. We have some decorations up. Franz chopped down a little Charlie Brown tree - which looks quite pretty. I have stayed home for the most part - trying to get painting done for my finals on Friday. The girls performed a duet of Away in the Manger at the community strings concert and also at the Stake Christmas Concert. They pulled it off and it sounded lovely. I have managed to have some cards printed - but as of yet have not filled any out. The storms have ended. The sun is out and the snow melting quickly. This is good, we needed a break between storms.We are still waiting for banks to fight out the short sale. When it is all done I will be writing to the better business bureau again - this time to complain about a manager at Greentree - who has been very nasty and condescending to our realtor. We need to close by Friday and there are still so many lose ends. It is not a done deal. I want this behind us by Christmas.
We will spend Christmas with family in Utah - and are looking forward to time away. I have a friend from school who will be house sitting - and writing her thesis in the quiet.
Time for old movies, hot cocoa - with soy and stevia. Actually, I need to paint - but can have the afore mentioned along with the painting.
Hope you are all well and feeling light hearted!
4 comments:
I loved reading this Serena, we all go through our "stuff" differently and at different times. As you know I am struggling with my own "stuff" and as we get ready to close this year, let's hope 2010 rings in with hope and many changes. We'll miss seeing you at Christmas this year, but it will be nice for you guys to get away. Enjoy the holiday, I love you. Heidi
The holidays are very stressful-especially this year. But, you just have to take things one day at a time and one thing at a time. Good luck on your finals and have fun in UTah! We're excited we'll have all of our family here-can't wait to see the babies!
Man, you think they'd at least provide a veggie tray. I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. At least you're going to Utah for Christmas-it's always pretty there in December.
We had our ward Christmas party last night, fortunately people brought salad. Veggies are so important. We will miss you this year. What with the traveling to opposite ends of the country. I hope that now with classes over, a few fantastic grades under your belt, you can sit and find some peace. We love you, you are always in our prayers! Merry Christmas.
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